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[Whew. Okay, so the CDC really does have some amazing abilities then.]
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
I see then. Thank you for explaining that. I appreciate your candor.
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
I see then. Thank you for explaining that. I appreciate your candor.
[ Lady you are intense!!! ]
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
It's... fine. I know other worlds don't work the same way.
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
It's... fine. I know other worlds don't work the same way.
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
They don't unfortunately.
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
While I cannot say I fully understand your situation, you have my advice and support should you need it.
They don't unfortunately.
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
While I cannot say I fully understand your situation, you have my advice and support should you need it.
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
That's pretty nice of you.
[ He's not going to deny that... And he is pretty much always full of questions. ]
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
Why did you join the CDC?
That's pretty nice of you.
[ He's not going to deny that... And he is pretty much always full of questions. ]
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
Why did you join the CDC?
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
I was promised the chance to follow the possibility of a better future for my own world.
[And to follow someone else chasing that possibility but she stays silent on that front for now.]
I was promised the chance to follow the possibility of a better future for my own world.
[And to follow someone else chasing that possibility but she stays silent on that front for now.]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I usually am.
[...joking or serious?]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Get back to the observation deck when you can. If you see any other cadets while you're there, I want you to trade intel with them if you have it/are allowed to.
I usually am.
[...joking or serious?]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Get back to the observation deck when you can. If you see any other cadets while you're there, I want you to trade intel with them if you have it/are allowed to.
[ D'Artagnan doesn't try to hold him back, or control him in any way. He also doesn't really attack, unless Roxas ever seems like he's backing off, and then he brings them back into it. Mostly he defends, and and gives Roxas something to hit. Something to take the anger out on, a way of getting it out of his system.
By the end of it he's breathing hard, a sweat has broken out over his neck and his hair is shoved back away from his face.
Despite that, he feels good. Training does that to him. When Roxas finally stops, and drops to the floor, and tosses his sword back onto the table he'd lifted it from, and comes over to sit beside him. He pulls his knees up to lean his arms on them, and he nods. He doesn't say anything about the tears. He'd rather they were falling than being held in. ]
I know.
[ He shrugs and then smiles, just a little. ]
It's normal, though. Being angry and upset. You don't have to not feel them. You just can't let them rule you. There's probably nothing I'm worse at than that, honestly.
By the end of it he's breathing hard, a sweat has broken out over his neck and his hair is shoved back away from his face.
Despite that, he feels good. Training does that to him. When Roxas finally stops, and drops to the floor, and tosses his sword back onto the table he'd lifted it from, and comes over to sit beside him. He pulls his knees up to lean his arms on them, and he nods. He doesn't say anything about the tears. He'd rather they were falling than being held in. ]
I know.
[ He shrugs and then smiles, just a little. ]
It's normal, though. Being angry and upset. You don't have to not feel them. You just can't let them rule you. There's probably nothing I'm worse at than that, honestly.
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
So you really did want to save your world. That's pretty great.
[ Roxas seal of approval. ]
So you really did want to save your world. That's pretty great.
[ Roxas seal of approval. ]
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
Garrus never said we couldn't, why wouldn't we be able to?
[ ...He really doesn't get hierarchy politics... ]
Garrus never said we couldn't, why wouldn't we be able to?
[ ...He really doesn't get hierarchy politics... ]
[ Roxas nods along, listening to what's being said to him. He remains quiet for a moment after D'artagnan finishes however, letting his tears taper off and his breathing go a bit more even. It does actually make him feel a bit comforted to hear that D'artagnan has trouble keeping his feelings in their proper place sometimes too. Feels a little less stupid and like he's really made some kind of utterly unforgivable mistake. ]
I talk to people a lot... about how to take good care of my heart. [ This stupid earnest boy can't help but put his hand on his chest, like he's cradling something incredibly precious and utterly priceless beneath the palm of his hand. ] They say things that make sense, but it's hard to figure out where it all fits when something really happens.
I'm really worried I'm going to make a big mistake.
[ He sighs, head falling back to look up at the ceiling for a moment. ]
I've always ended up making really big mistakes, and the people around me end up hurt.
I talk to people a lot... about how to take good care of my heart. [ This stupid earnest boy can't help but put his hand on his chest, like he's cradling something incredibly precious and utterly priceless beneath the palm of his hand. ] They say things that make sense, but it's hard to figure out where it all fits when something really happens.
I'm really worried I'm going to make a big mistake.
[ He sighs, head falling back to look up at the ceiling for a moment. ]
I've always ended up making really big mistakes, and the people around me end up hurt.
[... Ah. Now she feels dishonest. She hadn't been mentioning her second reason for fear of Banagher knowing but...]
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
Not completely. I followed another recruit here as well. I was told he was also chasing this possibility.
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
My desire was not so completely pure of heart, you could say.
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
Not completely. I followed another recruit here as well. I was told he was also chasing this possibility.
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
My desire was not so completely pure of heart, you could say.
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
Totally pure of heart people are really rare. It's okay.
[ Disnyeland logic :) ]
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
But it's pretty great to have a friend here too, you guys can work together to make things better.
Totally pure of heart people are really rare. It's okay.
[ Disnyeland logic :) ]
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
But it's pretty great to have a friend here too, you guys can work together to make things better.
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
We can, yes. I'm thankful for that opportunity as well.
We can, yes. I'm thankful for that opportunity as well.
[ D'Artagnan listens to Roxas talk, while the muscles in his face relax with sympathy. He knows exactly what the boy's talking about. In the end, he reaches to put a hand on his shoulder, and squeezes it. ]
Listen. There's not a man alive who doesn't fear for that. Everyone makes mistakes. Your heart will make you do stupid, ridiculous things, and you'll regret them all after and swear it'll never happen again.
Hearts break too easily. That's the problem with them, but you're still better with one than without. You just have to use your head, too. It doesn't mean you'll never get hurt or you'll never hurt someone else, but maybe it'll help you take the right risks, at the right time.
If you're ever unsure, then talk to someone about it. You can come to me any time. I know Garrus would say the same. We'll be here for you, we're your team. We're not going to leave you alone.
Listen. There's not a man alive who doesn't fear for that. Everyone makes mistakes. Your heart will make you do stupid, ridiculous things, and you'll regret them all after and swear it'll never happen again.
Hearts break too easily. That's the problem with them, but you're still better with one than without. You just have to use your head, too. It doesn't mean you'll never get hurt or you'll never hurt someone else, but maybe it'll help you take the right risks, at the right time.
If you're ever unsure, then talk to someone about it. You can come to me any time. I know Garrus would say the same. We'll be here for you, we're your team. We're not going to leave you alone.
[ It has been a very long time since anyone has said something like that to him. It takes him back to the special place on top of the clock tower, where he had brought all of his troubles to Axel and his friend had done his best to guide him through questions no one ever expected him to experience first hand.
It makes him feel good, comforted assuredly, but the sadness will not leave his thoughts.
He smiles wanly, exhausted with all the trouble he's caused. ]
Thanks. I'll... do better, next time.
[ Because having a team and not being alone is incredibly important. ]
It makes him feel good, comforted assuredly, but the sadness will not leave his thoughts.
He smiles wanly, exhausted with all the trouble he's caused. ]
Thanks. I'll... do better, next time.
[ Because having a team and not being alone is incredibly important. ]
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
I have something I want too.
so you don't have to worry about me bothering him again.
[ not even gonna speak his name rn. ]
I have something I want too.
so you don't have to worry about me bothering him again.
[ not even gonna speak his name rn. ]
FROM: zabi.mineva@cdc.org
Thank you for the reassurance.
Thank you for the reassurance.
[ D'Artagnan nods at that, and gives him a smile that he hopes is comforting. He doesn't expect this to fix everything for Roxas. He just hopes that it helps, in as much as it can. ]
I know you will.
What's done is done. Don't worry about it. Next time, you'll have us to face it with you.
I know you will.
What's done is done. Don't worry about it. Next time, you'll have us to face it with you.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
Artillery, this is d'Artagnan. I'm at Camp, and I'm checking in. Let me know if you're safe, please.
Artillery, this is d'Artagnan. I'm at Camp, and I'm checking in. Let me know if you're safe, please.
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
I'm okay, Xion helped me get back.
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
Getting beat up by butterflies is kind of embarrassing.
I'm okay, Xion helped me get back.
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
Getting beat up by butterflies is kind of embarrassing.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
Well you weren't the only one.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
From what I'm hearing, they were toxic and could eat through metal. I don't think you have anything to be ashamed about.
Well you weren't the only one.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
From what I'm hearing, they were toxic and could eat through metal. I don't think you have anything to be ashamed about.
FROM: roxas@cdc.org
Why is everything here poisonous....
Why is everything here poisonous....
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
I doubt everything is. But perhaps because it's alien? It makes sense that our bodies wouldn't completely agree with it.
I doubt everything is. But perhaps because it's alien? It makes sense that our bodies wouldn't completely agree with it.
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